105. A different territory

it’s not your rule anymore.

I’ve been to different camps, holidays, and locations, over the last few weeks and what’s hit me most is that things aren’t in my control.

I can’t eat the way I usually would.

I can’t exercise the way I usually would.

I can’t go about my routines the way I usually would.

At first, this annoyed me as I like things in my control.

Then I realised I had two options… to embrace it or reject it.

No one ever got friends by acting in a superiority complex rejecting things because they were ‘below them’.

A level of doing things you wouldn’t routinely do is needed to gain empathy, understand people, and grow in interactions.

But it’s not only that.

An uncomfortable embracing of difference is the tool needed to keep you on track in the repetition.

If all you know is one thing how can you ever know any better, how to improve or be secure in your actions.

During my holidays I worked out I really liked my routine. I like how I do things. I like how I have worked hard to curate the life I have.

I switched my perspective, I wasn’t sour about the current situation I was in but grateful for the new season of work I was going to go into.

So from this, I’m learning to ease back on my desire to control and instead recognise the tool it can be to learn and grow.

Some people can teach you and inevitably some situations can annoy you- yet there is still learning in it.

I know now I am curating love for not just the holiday but the everyday - and I think that’s something I’m proud of.