49. Retraining

It’s hard recognising you are not as good as you once used to be.

I have just got back to running after being injured for a few months and despite feeling so happy and grateful to be back there is a sense of sadness as I recognise that I am not as fit as I once was. My speed isn’t there, easy runs seem hard, distances seem longer.

I recognise I have to retrain to get back to where I want to be.

The same can also be said in lots of other aspects of life. We get to a point of stagnancy, take a break, stop for some reason and lose that momentum we once had. Starting again is a struggle.

Despite saying that- there is often a benefit to starting something again, a benefit to retraining.

You have a new perspective, a fresh motivation, a better plan of action.

The training that once took you six months only takes you one.

The mental barrier that stopped you from progressing before has gone and you have the ability to go above and beyond all you ever achieved.

We often look at things in black and white.

We’re either being productive or completely wasting our time.

Yet, there is so much more nuanced and grey in between.

This time of pausing, the hiatus, the reflection- can actually be more useful than purposeless action.

Time is only wasted if we let it be so.

I am determined to make sure this break of intensity is a positive thing.

So I’m going into retraining with a new positive mindset and I hope you do too.